Darling won't you please come home.

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Originally uploaded by Rachel Ariel.

I dream of a studio or an efficiency with a lofted bed and lots of light. No more north facing windows for me, I miss my rainbows. I've been feeling a little lost lately. Everyone in my life is involved in fairly serious relationships. And we're all getting to an age where that actually means something. And here I am... alone, and mostly happy about that. Except for those certain moments. It's not that I want to date someone, its that I want to already be there. I want the comfort of having been married to someone for five years, knowing that I'll continue to wake up next to that person every day for the rest of my life, and feeling really happy and secure in that knowledge.

Whe I lived alone at least I didn't have to check with anyone before inviting a friend to stay for two weeks. But the loneliness occassionaly ate my soul a little bit. I guess everything has it's own special tradeoff.