Autumn Came Around Like a Drifter to an On-ramp

Fall is upon me, the leaves are finally changing and the chill in the air is definite. I'm beginning to layer, and it makes me happy. the heat is finally fixed in my house, which is excellent considering that it has gotten down into the 30s and 40s at night for the last couple of weeks. My life has been different since moving, and sometimes thats a good thing, and sometimes it is not. I don't have to convince myself that I love my job anymore. I am not bored at work, and though it is sometimes stressful and frustrating, it feels very good to be working a field that is actually what I would like to do for many years. Well... not the personal assistant end of it, but the organization works in the field I am interested in being in. I liked my old job, but that was more about the people that I worked with and being involved with something that was doing good work in the world. The fact was that as much as I enjoyed it, it was time for me to go when I did. There was really no room for me to advance in Denver.
One of the things that has made me really happy since moving is all of the shows I've gotten to see. I have seen four shows, The Mountain Goats, KMFDM, TV on the Radio and Dresden Dolls.

The other day I was thinking about the shows I've been to this year, as a work in progress, the list looks like this:

Stars (february)
Minus the Bear (march)
Dresden Dolls (march)
Spoon (april)
Mogwai/ Saves the Day (april)
Pretty Girls Make Graves (april)
Eels (may)
Islands (may)
Pearl Jam (june)
Missing Dufranes (august, an old friend's band)
The Mountain Goats (september)
KMFDM (october)
TV on the Radio (october)
Dresden Dolls (october)

That's more concerts than there are months in the year, and the year isn't over yet. Tomorrow night is the Decemberists, and then we get into the holiday season and the lean months. But musically, it has been a good year. This was the year of Wilco, The Mountain Goats, Dresden Dolls, Neutral Milk Hotel and Spoon.

There are other thoughts about my life that I would share, but for now, you get a list, some thoughts, and I get the knowledge that maybe I'm not as broken as I sometimes let myself believe.

beginning to remember what "happy" feels like

So here I sit in Great Falls, Virginia, trying not to fall asleep and then wondering... why? why should i not fall asleep? aside from the desperate fear of my contact lenses adhereing themselves to my eyeballs, there is really no reason. perhaps i shall go to sleep... and sleep for a very long time. or perhaps i shall wander downstairs and eat some very very good food that i did not pay for.

There have been some tribulations since the move... cat issues, roomie issues, job stress and boy stress... but everything seems to be resolving itself in a generally reasonable manner. My job is awesome. It is not what I want to do with the rest of my life, but for now it is in the field in which I want to work, and it is at an organization I am thrilled to be working with. As much as I loved working at the counseling agency... I had a fairly limited job description and no real room for advancement. Here... here I could work for five years before I felt the need to consider going back to school. Not that I think that's the way things will come down... but I could do it. I could be happy working at Women for Women for a good many years. Though, as I said, perhaps not in the exact place where I am now. I am learning a lot, though it would be difficult to describe, lots of communication and outreach and such things.

the sleep bug is taking me... so i think i'll "put a dash in it" as one of my old professors had a tendency to say.